Just Like Old Times.....

The world is round... life is round... its a big circle.

And once again, I find myself at somehow the same mental state as 2 years back. Now I am bunking work at TCS, instead of my CA Classes and SRC.

Life also got a whole lot complicated... Marriage.. Job... Life... Freedom... Survival... Friends... Survival... Family... Oh did I mention survival...

I hate this horrible job right now. I can't think of a reason why I liked it in the first place now. I am tired of desperately looking for jobs in job sites. I am tired of writing those fucking mails to consultants. I rue some stupid missed opportunities that may or may not have turned right. I rue what I said to that Evosys guy on thursday. But its a hell lot complicated.

I haven't wrote for a long time now... and thats cos I just didn't have the energy. Its being slowly sucked out of me.

I saw 2 girls as well for this arranged marriage thing. And I said yes to one. Gawd! Now I am thinking why did I say yes to her in the first place. But anyhow she didn't wanna get married and that was the end of that.

So, now what?

Elimination ought to do the trick right. But wrong. Its not helping either.

1.I wanna Quit the current Job.
2.I dont wanna go back to my home.
3.I wanna hopefully quit Gurgaon.
4.I wanna see the world. (Pyramids, Europe, Latin America, Angkor Wat, Pearl Harbour etc. etc.)
5.I wanna secure a future (Just in case the world doesnt end in 2012)


But I don't know how and where to start. I am stuck again. Damn! And now I am bunking work. I hate that office. I hate these big companies. They are so horribly pathetic.

Maybe you need to experience everything to figure out what you want. But then life doesnt give you that much opportunities to figure out life. So its a catch-22 situation which I just cant figure out.

I think I will take the evosys job if they take me up too. But I dont think they will take me now. Shit... more job search ahead today.

Btw... The Last Remnant is a nice game...


Each time it comes it eats me alive
I try to behave but it eats me alive
So I declare a holiday
Fall asleep, Drift away