Leaving Home.....

Finally leaving home tomorrow for Gurgaon.... Very scared..... Very unsure of whether its the right thing..... It's damn expensive as well....

Its not how I imagined I would leave.... I am feeling like I dunno, its really weird.... I gotta make the most of it, but I just dont know.... It's just Gurgaon, not London.... But London would have been better isnt it?

Very apprehensive.... Had a talk with Leena whether I am doing the right thing.... She said I was, but why am I feeling this strange yucky feeling.... like I am doing something wrong.... I am not.... Maybe... Maybe I am just being stupid....

I go back to Find the River by REM, one of my favourite songs.... I run into another page which reminds me of something I wrote long back and was probably meant to be found on this day..... long is just a strange word now.... the last 5 months haven't been long, but the things that happened last year seems so distant now.... It's all relative.... This is what I wrote last year:

This just became my favourite REM song!! Its incredible the way it just picks up. And the lyrics are amazing too. Everyone just has to find the river of his life I guess. Thats what this song is about. The flow of one's life can only be decided after you ascertained the right river. Most dont care about finding the river but then you might wash on a shore that you never meant to me.

The one person I would like to inform right now would probably be least interested in knowing all this.... I shared day dreams with her.... Felt really guilty for the last 4 months or so... Didn't have the courage to face myself or her or this blog..... It was all going down the drain.... Maybe 2007 will never be back again.... I guess thats the way a river runs.... its never turns back...

God help me..... pleaseeeeeeee ...... Make this work....

Hey now, little speedyhead,
The read on the speedometer says
You have to go to task in the city
Where people drown and people serve
Don't be shy. Your just deserve
Is only just light years to go