Back to Square One!....!

The culmination of regret, tiredness and a sense of defeat over the last few weeks have made me give way. I am leaving Gurgaon for home tomorrow. Not as hopeful, scared and excited as I was, when I first moved here. Maybe this will add up to my regret list as well. Quite likely indeed. But, I just gave up.

I am back to square one once again. Once again beginning new in an organization I hardly like, doing something that I think is way below my intellect, and being treated by some fool like I have never done anything in my life. Maybe the problem is that I compare, complain and criticize too much.

"I will not reason or compare, my business is to create"

Some part of here was really wonderful. The old house more so. Met some really wonderful people, made some life long friends. Had some really really wonderful long discussions. Had some fights. Had some disagreements. Had a lot of laughs.

I don't know how much this experience changed me, but it did teach me a lot.

But now, its back to home again. The weight of dead dreams is constantly pushing me down. I must close my mind to all of them, and become an office zombie. I wish I could go to Japan tomorrow too... wow, that would be so amazing. Tskkkk.....

Is there anybody out there who
Is lost and hurt and lonely too
Are they bleeding all your colours into one?
And if you come undone
As if you've been run through
Some catapult it fired you
You wonder if your chance will ever come
Or if you're stuck in square one

Note :- Those colors are actually yellow and grey... the new EY Branding... Hahahaha..