Zindagi....

Rango se kahoon
Lakeero se kahoon
Maili maili si tasveeron se kahoon

Bekarari si bekarari hai


To colors I say
To lines I say
To these dusty pictures I say

Something is amiss.....

Ipso Facto....

So, its been a while again. Some days its hard to tell what is real. I have a real problem figuring that out lately. Not lately though on second thought.

Sometimes I feel like I am still sleepwalking my life. Like waiting for something to happen. I don't know what.

I don't really. like my job. It doesn't really excite me. But I guess it he pays well for effort I put into it. And its funny. that this has been my first job where I haven't put in any serious effort. My team is kinda nice. I like them. But its mostly about getting through the day.

I blew 2 lakh + in the stock market in the last two weeks. That has been depressing.. But sometimes I feel very indifferent and uncaring about it. Thtat makes me feel guilty as it was my hard earned. money. Am I being sself destructive again?

I don't really connect with my wife that well either. I am afraid there could be issues on that front too sooner rather than later.

I feel very empty and alone. I need to watch out my internal commentary.

When the day is done
Down to the earth sinks the sun
Along with everything that was lost and won
When the day is done