Severus Snape - the unlikely hero

Harry Potter and the deathly hallows confirmed what everybody believed. Severus Snape was indeed innocent. I just wanted to read the whole story to find out the predecided fate of Snape. He had to die. There was no other way to the story. With no one to live for, snape's survival would have been tragic that his death.

The most touching chapter of the whole book was - The Prince's Tale. I almost felt like crying by the time severus cast that silver doe in dumbeldore's office.

“After all this time?” - (Dumbledore)
“Always,” said Snape.

Snape wasnt as blessed as James or Sirius was. That is not our choice you see. We are the result of a million random events that trigger million other random events and things are not often what they are made out to be. All snape had was a friend in Lily. He watched her as greedily as he had watched her in the playground. JKR uses the word greedily. But is it really greed? If you have sobbed silently in the shadowy nights hoping you would see a silver angel to rescue you from your darkness than you would realize that it isnt greed that attracts you to that silver angel.

He was jealous over her. Cos thats all he had. And he didnt want to lose her to James, who clearly fancied her. Energy Vampires!! Thats the syndrome. When you go into negativeness, you suck out all the positive energy around you and you hurt the people you like the most. There is no apparent cure for this syndrome I suppose. It just makes you feel low, and you isolate yourself into that shell of yours, watching from your shadowy corner - the beautiful lights of the worlds, greedily I suppose, and then it turns to disgust, anger, destruction, self-destruction, anguish. A HOWL!

Lupin isnt too different from snape. And I have remarked this more than once. It says in some point of the book when harry is looking at an old photograph of the 4 friends that Lupin seemed only too pleased to have been included in that photograph. Lupin had self doubts. I dont really know if this was ever said in the book (I havent found it) but in the 3rd Movie, there is a scene between Lupin and Harry where Lupin tells Harry that Lily was a wonderful person, and she could see Good things in others, which they were otherwise unable to see.

Lupin found friends. Had snape been shown a little more friendship, I think he would have honoured his friendship beyond any other. And that is clear with his friendship with albus. Lupin was the same. And it is for this precise reason that Lupin never had any ill-feelings towards snape when he came to teach in the 3rd Book.

Undoubteldy Sirius and James were on the right side, but snape was far braver than any of them. They never had to face the darkness snape had to face. To fight others is never easy, but to fight your own self is beyond imagination. And snape I believe did that. And did that beautifully.

And as for me, I should know better....